I would like to apologize early on because I do not want to associate myself with any religion. And by that, I mean both theists and atheists. I get the need for humanity to organize and categorize certain aspects hence why numerous sects are created out of such efforts. Thus being said, I will try my best to answer this from my own genuine perspective and not a façade to satisfy anyone. I am against social conformity though it is inevitable that we have to lower our pride and submit, there are times that we have to stand against the crowd to make a statement in our lives.
As a man, a guy, an adolescent teen who is a subject to none other but himself. I see life as something meaningless. Like a concept that we humans can barely grasp. We may think that we have found out what life is but realistically no, that’s just a personal bias making its way out to our mouths just so we could profess something about life. It’s scary to think that we are nothing but a product of years of evolution. Come to think of it reptiles were given the chance to take this evolutionary niche in the system. Just imagine how different would our lives be if we were sentient reptilian creatures. My point is that life in itself, in its purest essence is meaningless and empty. It’s weird, it’s scary, and also very awkward.
Let’s put optimism in perspective here. Life is meaningless, yes? And because of it being meaningless we are given the chance to give it our own, each, individual unique meaning. Some might say that life is wonderful, and it probably is. Some might say life is hard, or really anything that anyone could think of.
Some see things differently than others, and it’s normal. How I wish to see life is centered on pure existential, nihilistic, pessimistic if you will, and overall philosophical grounds. I don’t intend to give life a single constant meaning. As the hourglass of time ever flows with sand so too my thoughts. And what I’m seeing right now with my life is a computer screen with a bunch of words and letters written on it as I continue to write this essay. I’m not saying “I loath making essays” to be frank I love making essays especially if it revolves around philosophical inquiries. Politics, linguistics, religion, almost all branches of philosophy. Now speaking of religion, what would the God of Abrahamic religion think of me as of the moment? Well, I would say he probably won’t think of me. I mean why would a being of such great omnipotent power worry about something as small and insignificant as me? It doesn’t make sense, really. It doesn’t add up to me. More so to live, or achieve what God wants for me? I mean I don’t even know what I want and yet this unseen being, all-knowing, and great seems to have a plan for me. What’s he going to do to give me a stone tablet? Make me go to the desert for 40 days? I’m not trying to attack any believers of faith it’s just that we, as humans often like to give a certain phenomenon a cause, a reason, and for some reason if we can’t identify it we often turn to the quickest and easiest, blame god.
We affiliate some feats that appear superhuman with divination so much to the point that we forget that not all of us share in this belief. We are still human despite differences in faith, practice, and philosophy. What I can do to achieve is not predetermined by some God. It’s my own intuition and intuitive nature to go out and make a difference. It doesn’t have to be big. Simply by loving your neighbors, and honoring thy father and mother. I might sound hypocritical in this part of the essay since I did slander theism a few sentences back. The way I see it has a similarity to how Feuerbach would see it. It’s not generally bad to believe something, in fact, it is an even greater good that you believe in something. Religion is a good source of ethics, morality, and good character. And I ought to think of it that way. I shall conclude this essay by saying:
“Believe in what you want to believe, fight in what you want to fight, stand for something that you are willing to stand up for, as long as it does not impede on the ethics and freedom, and question the morality of humanity then, why not? In the end, we’ll die either way. Leaving a legacy is as good as leaving a garden that you won’t get to see, so it’s better to just live a life that has an impact on yourself and others. I don’t want to believe, I want to live.”
